17 things went wrong on monday, all before lunchtime, that was the most horrific day ive had in a while. wednesday was a shit day, i was ignored by everyone etc etc and then cut and cried and cut some more. today was shit as well cus a guy i like seems to be crushing on a year 9 so im planning on hurting myself some more tonight. tuesday was ok and shit at the same time. thursday was overall shit. wow, i want to fucking die.

i just want you to hold me in your arms, is that too much to ask. i’m so tired of being alone. years of being alone. that’s too long. i just want you you you you you. why can’t you like me? why why why why why? i hate this. i see you look at me but i just can’t believe you could ever like me. i’m not skinny, pretty or popular. honestly, who would want me? 

i’m so confused about the person i like. i want you so much. but i can’t, you’re too good for me. hell, everyone is too good for me. i’m so ugly and i hate being so ugly. what is wrong with my life. i’m going to hurt myself so much and just have some time to myself. i can’t talk to you. attractive people make me scared. i don’t even know.